A Blip of Delusion

Seriously, I do not know what has been wrong with me the last several months. I deluded myself. I just reread my entry from yesterday. Good lord, when did I become THAT girl. The one who obsesses over some guy that doesn't like her anyway. Come on. I really need a break from relationships. I'm just glad that the delusion is over so I can get back to enjoying my life. I do wish things worked out differently but such is life and there is a reason for everything. There is nothing I can do but move forward.
Perception is everything. Altering your perception of a situation can work wonders. Thankfully, I haven't forgotten how to do that. Now that I consider it, it's probably a good thing. I promised myself after my first love failed to never get like that again, and I just came dangerously close to that. Perhaps that is the reason things worked out as they did. I won't know for sure, of course, but it makes sense. If I lose myself in someone else, I will never be happy. If I lose myself in someone else, I will always fail. I really need someone to slap me upside the head sometimes and say "Snap out of this, you're better than this". Oh well I suppose we are not all perfect. I let myself get consumed in things that don't matter at times. I have to remember who I am. I am not the girl who cries in front of guys (granted I was PMSing hugely that day), but still that's no excuse. Disgusting behavior. Never again. I really need to get a grip. I've got one now. I'll be fine. It was just a little blip of insanity. I'm glad it's over. I'm going to finish my coffee, take a nice long shower, go to work, and then go out and have fun tonight with my friends. Maybe next time I can stop blogging about my personal fails and actually talk about something interesting.